So! last Monday, I was very much BLESSED to have been able to attend a workshop conducted by Armand Serrano, one of the many AMAZING artists I look up to. For those who aren't familiar with him, he is a concept designer who worked on various films such as Mulan, Hotel Transylvania Big Hero 6 and recently, Zootopia! I got to see the logic behind his designs, especially the San Fransokyo Tech Institute where he had our
university in mind. He graduated from the same university as I did and that--that just blows me away. I mean when you look at it, it may not be much, but opportunities like those are very rare around here. We are far
from being a progressive country and you really gave to build up your strength in order to achieve those kind of things. Just attending his workshop had done me so much and it really made me realize that what he aimed for--what I
aim for is not impossible.
Three or so years ago, I was really frustrated because even though I want to do that kind of work, it's kind of like a long shot due to the lack of opportunities where I'm at. It doesn't help that you're gonna get your soul and ego crushed every now and then--being called a poser, not having the proper education, heck I didn't even know if I was in the right program. But now... I guess it's all just a matter of how you see things in life--those challenges, those people who did not need to work up a sweat because everything is handed to them on a silver platter, everything. If I gave up on that then, I wouldn't even have the guts to try and register on that workshop and totally give up on being an artist. It almost happened... but I'm glad it didn't. Hahaha. It was just in time too. I have been feeling a tad bit depressed over my skills. You know when you think there's something wrong with your art, can't point it out, and just flat-out think it's because you suck in general? I know I'm not supposed to be feeling this way because "you're way better than I am! shut up!", "you have had instruction! i had to climb on my own!" "not many people can do what you do!"... but hey, I'm only human, no? I know if something's wrong with what I'm doing and it's stuff like that that takes a toll on my mental health. Currently, I'm recovering... at least I've gotten my hand on a couple of new art and I'm working on art for Kuvira Week
on Tumblr. That's something. Gotta pick yourself up, somehow.
Yeah I guess I've poured out a bit of personal stuff here now. I suppose there's nothing wrong with doing that from time to time since I should probably show people that I'm not a cardboard box who just produces drawings all the time XD I have real people problems. A lot of 'em.
Well, I'm still in the garbage bin that is the Dynasty Warriors fandom. I don't plan on giving up on my character soon--not when I'm very close to drawing a shippy pic of her and her main man. I've done some sketches that, by the mercy of God, should be colored at least before the year ends... but before that, I'm working on her character sheet too (when I'm on break, that is, okay). I also designed her awakened/fury form and I simply couldn't wait to render it and submit it here. Oh, and I may or may not be working on some Touken Ranbu art. Hell yes, sword hell, I'm a denizen of your otherworldly trash. June 1
Hey everyone! I'm seeing new watchers on my page. Welcome to my gallery and thank you for watching me! Please feel free to converse, I may not always reply fast but I'm always open to talk to anyone of you! ^o^)/
I've been busy with work for the past two months! I've learned a lot, but I'm also frequently tired ;;;v;;; I'm eyeing for significant improvement before the year ends so I have to practice a lot... I don't know when I'll be able to open my commissions again because of that, so I guess you will all just have to wait for an official announcement. I currently have two in my queue.
I'm still working on my Dynasty Warriors character(s)... it's really good practice XD Keeps me sane lol. So yeah, hello to the fandom this trash person has entered your territory hahaha--I still haven't revealed who she's paired with but I will soon. I don't want to say anything unless I got stuff to back it up, not to make it look like "I did deez just to pair" and then get hit by anyone TTuTT I also heard a new Dynasty Warriors coming and I'm quite excited for it. I'm saving up for a PS4 so I can play it along with Devil May Cry 4: Special Edition :v I hope they release a physical copy... getting it on digital is such a bitch.
I'm talking gibberish--I should probably sleep lol